Cut, Part III

"Kitten, I have a task for you this week," he told me over the phone.

"Yes?," I asked. I could hear the nervousness in my voice. I cleared my throat and took a deep breath.

"I want you to find something for me to cut you with. Do you think you can do that?"

"Yes, I can do that." Why the hell was I so eager? Why did my pulse quicken at the thought of finding the blade that he would cut me with, presenting it to him on my knees, seeing him take it from me, hold it above me...

"Good girl," he cooed. "Let me know if you have any trouble finding it. But if you don't tell me, I'll expect you to have it by the weekend. Don't disappoint me."

"I won't, Sir."

"I think I might have to tie your hands when I cut you. What do you think about that?"

"Um...," I stammered nervously. I knew that if he wanted to tie my hands, I wouldn't have much say in the matter. And maybe that would help because I wouldn't be able to interfere with what he was doing in a moment of panic.

"I'm not going to blindfold you, though, because I want you to see the blood."

I sputtered, not sure what to say. Blood. How much blood would there be?

"Trust me, Kitten," he whispered. "Trust."


Anonymous said...

This is hard for me to read because this is one part of submission that I wouldn't know how to handle. I was a self-injurer for about 9 years, and so the thought of cutting or even my Daddy or master or whoever is my dominant doing so takes me to a very uncomfortable place.

Daddy, fortunately, is more into the discipline and other things than the actual painful stuff, and I know that wouldn't be his thing. But I know that once I find a more active dominant that he will take liberty and pleasure in doing what he can with his property, and I will be happy to oblige. I just hope cutting isn't a part of it. But if it is, so be it.

Take care my dear kitten and don't be so nervous...remember to trust.

I hope it all goes well...



Anonymous said...

Let us know how it goes Kitten,
Good luck, your words move us and we are with you in spirit.

swordfish155 said...

otownsubkitty is right here. trust is what is being re-emphasized. breathe deeply and submit, knowing that you're on a two way street.

Kitten said...

Thank you for your comments, everyone. I also hope that it goes well.

kitty - I have the opposite feeling based on my history of self-injury. Ever since I gave up any cutting to Him, I feel like a burden has been lifted. Suppressing those urges that still creep up has become part of my submission. In any case, I would hope that any good Owner would respect your views on pain and would refrain.